Idid it but i regret it

I ate the meal i ate it all except from the mash potato the toad in the hole was massive i mean humungous. Before the meal i was so excited about eating it but as soon as i sat down to eat it i was miserable and had to force evri mouthfull and i was so sad because the meal was lovely and i was so happi be4 i sat down to eat it......By the end i was full of anger i wanted to get my blades and cut my arm to get the anger away i knew i couldnt make myself sick too many people were watching me......Before i thought i was just dramatic but now i know im ill......