There is this guy called steven i have known him a month he is mates with my boss.....And he always had something about him that made him a decent person......He was talkative and funny and always involved me in convo's with his mates and that....
.And he has caught drift of my little problem with food and we were sitting on the bottom bunk of my bunk bed and we were chatting for ages and wen we got onto the topic of food....he asked me lots of questions and took a real genuine intrest and looked like he cared...
I so wanted to explain how i feel i spoke to him about a few things but i didnt tell him how i totali felt and i regret it so much......i reali feel like i could trust him and i know its probably my imagineation running away with me but im sure that he sort of likes me or has some form of feelings for me even if it is freinds but he is just so nice.......
Steven is just so lovely i mean i want to be around him all time....i hope he likes me even if it is as a freind....I could see him being the one to pull me away from my strange eating habbits.....Plus today had an argument with my mom.....and i saw myself cutting myself tonight i had blade ready and everything cuz i knew if i cut myself i wont eat anything but i had to phone my mom and we had a good chat and i cheerd up but still i hate myself because today i went on a binge and i couldnt stop although i was drinking water it didnt help........
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