Binge eating for nearly a week....

I cant stop, i just cant stop eating eating eating...... ive gone from one extreme of not eating or eating as little as possible to full blown gorging.... but im not getting to excited because....I dont even taste the food whilst im eating it. Im trying make myself full to stop the noise of the hunger but the person inside of me who doesnt want the food is getting more and more angry and i feel like im being torn in 2 i cant help it i try to egnore one of the people inside me but then the other one starts on me and at the moment im too weak to fight (im not being dramatic mentally i am too weak to fight my corner against two other people onside me) i dont no whats going to hapen i can quickly see the binge coming to an end (well i hope it does) But i know then as soon as i dont want to binge the otherside will kick in and i wont want to eat full stop and ill be as worse off just hungry and weak...

Its come to peoples attention about my problem with food firstly.....When i was drunk on holiday at my aunts (i drank about 8 or 9 red wines and i cant even handle alco-pops) me her and her boyfreind were in the pub and me and my aunt began to speak......granted i was nearly very drunk by the time my mouth began to run off....She said that i had lost weight and i smiled and said thankyou......she looked worried at me and said why do you take me saying you've lost weight as a compliment and i told her that ive been working on my weight............(well to cut a long story short we were chatting then for about two hours in the corner of the oub me red wine after red wine her white wine after white wine)

I basically told her that i was cutting myself and that i have stopped eating normal amounts of food (and only now have i realised how much weight ive lost, but the scary thing is it just makes me feel more happy than worried) so my auntknows all my secrets and decides to tell her boyreind so next morning he feels he needs a serious chat with me it was so embaressing......then i tild them that i stopped doing it they only saw some of the cuts.......my aunts boyfreind said dont worry we wont tell ya mom as long as you stop it obviously i used the smile and they fell for it.........

My mom and my nan have some suspicions but my nan is more an observer than a talker and if i say i dont want ahything to eat she gets mad and offended that i dont want her cooking so i have to force her meals down but i have managed to dodge going there for a while so thats one less battle to fught.........

My boss sadly worked with anorexics and he picked up on my behavioural patterns and when i would not eat at dinner and he told me a few days later what could happen to me like i could be put away and be sectioned i just have to be a bit more carefull now....i cnat be found out im making myself better i dont need anyone else.......at all